5 January 2024
Number chapter 7 verse 3
“And they brought their offering before the LORD, six covered wagons, and twelve oxen; a wagon for two of the princes, and for each one an ox: and they brought them before the tabernacle.”
Numbers 7:3 KJV
Honestly, I couldn’t understand why this verse came to mind and what I was supposed to get from it but I saw the word tabernacle. I don’t know what it means and I came across this article/explanation (https://www.christianity.com/wiki/christian-terms/what-was-the-purpose-of-the-tabernacle.html)
After reading and while reading, I thought that I am blessed. I can speak with God at any time and anywhere.
6 January 2024
Went shopping today, my sister reminded me to pray for everything and anything.
I caught up on some videos on YouTube and slept too late.
7 January 2024
I watched Aunty Tabitha Brown YouTube video on being obedient to God.
https://youtu.be/UOgEh-Io1n8?feature=shared
I had a conversation with my brother about the importance of prayer, I am learning how important prayer is. I later had a conversation with my family about prayer and my dad said “that prayer is like clothing” and “leaving the house without praying is basically leaving the house naked”
He spoke about three important things, the first is prayer, the second is praising God though song and the third is thanks giving. Thanking God for the things he has done (I am adding, as well as what is yet to come and things you can’t see). A song that came to mind – give thanks with a grateful heart by Don Moen.
Lastly, I watched Sister Celestial from master’s voice blog https://youtu.be/AMHkZ4PiGbI?si=WU3O-KBfklgU7Fv9
It was a heavy one, but Sister Celestial encourages me to move away from sin and being unrepentant. Sister Celestial spoke about the sin series (the quick description – what is sin and what judgements will be for those who refuse to stop doing it) https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PL2-q_kG95LKp7zr7bC1oWLk241jzUbN-D&feature=shared and the why repentance for sin; why is it important series https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PL2-q_kG95LKp0KGZJDw0rDcHNENis7tjT&feature=shared)
I want thank Sister Celestial for her obedience to God and the time she spends to do God’s work. God strengthen and protect her. Her video was sent to me at a time when I was backslid from God. I appreciate the words she continues to speak and the reminders she gives, to give time to God and run from sin.
8 January 2024
In the morning, I watched another video from Sister Celestial from master’s voice blog
Sorted through my papers, letters and all types of paperwork.
9 January 2024
I watched success is guaranteed this mindset very early in the morning after 12 am. link -https://youtu.be/nxXNPJufQuE?feature=shared
Katt Williams interview with Cari Champion uploaded 2 days from 2022 – link https://youtu.be/9Idgga6NRS8?si=x_zac-Rpf5QBkvSq
The last bit of the video stood out at 50 minutes, Carl Champion asked Katt Williams “where do you find your peace and how do you turn off if at all possible” and Katt Williams said. “If you follow religion, it says the Lord is my shepherd I shall not want and then it goes on to tell you other things but I found out that first part is the actual instruction, the Lord is my shepherd I shall not want and that’s the end and so my peace is the fact that I don’t want anything ever from anywhere, anybody, anything, any situation. I don’t have any expectations of you, them, no body. Are you a human, I don’t have an expectation of you. I know how this goes; you could do whatever you want to do. I have no wants; I have no needs. Who I am connected to gives me every single thing I have ever wanted. If I didn’t get it I found out I wasn’t supposed to have it “ and 55 minutes Katt Williams Said “ and when you understand that you can control every single thing that you control but you can’t control nothing you can’t control, and that’s the beauty of it, there’s nothing stopping great things from happening to you, that’s why suicide is the only thing you cannot do, you can never take yourself out of the game, don’t worry they will cart your carcass off as soon as you expire, but we don’t take ourselves out of the game, because as champions we know the next game is the best game”
10 January 2024
Interview day
11 January 2024
I looked at my cv and was reminded how blessed I was during the time period after university.
That time (between my finishing university and getting my first job)
Honestly, before today, I didn’t remember “the time” being a time of happiness. It was searching for a job, being turned down, lowering my job standard (what I was willing to apply for) and isolating myself. But today I looked at my CV and realised that time didn’t last for as long as I thought. I learnt a lot in that time, I was still blessed and protected. I probably I didn’t feel it or know that at the time.
I also went to a Reformer Pilates class.
12 January 2024
Taking control of our thoughts – Dr Charles Stanley – in touch ministries
I came across a longer video from Dr Charles Stanley concerning controlling thoughts, trusting God and bring inner peace. I looked for a video with images and I came across the above.
I watched eight minutes; I am going back to the video on Monday. There are somethings that I need to learn.
13 January 2024
I spent the day chilling with mum and watching tv.
14 January 2024
https://youtu.be/p4pA9zTTLU8?feature=shared
Sorting thought letters
15 January 2024
Yesterday, I sorted through letters and thank God that I did. I handled an issue that arose from ignoring, the letters for months (to be nice but truly years). I am so grateful to God and the person I spoke to the phone who helped me sort out the issue.
I went food shopping with my parents, then a stretch class with my sister.
I watched the second episode of the beautiful Sundai love’s renovation series, so proud of her journey to owning her property. https://youtu.be/sDPM4svtzls?feature=shared
Before bed I watched
Taking control of our thoughts – Dr Charles Stanley – in touch ministries
Up to 11 minutes, I am going to keep on watching and getting what I need from the teaching.
16 January 2024
I chilled in bed for ages, sorting out my CV, plus I found out that I didn’t get the job that I interviewed for last week. But I know that there are better and bigger opportunities coming.
I watched shows with my mum and sister for hours, eat then watched more episodes with my mum, dad and sister.
Before twelve I watched half of becoming a farm girls Q&A https://youtu.be/zwjE_jvQCR4?feature=shared. I will get back to the other half later.
Just after midnight, I watched my first video from a channel called Oak Abode regarding 11 habits from the Great Depression era, https://youtu.be/AijxEuJKRx4?feature=shared, I loved what she said about being content and having gratitude.
17 January 2024
Today, I didn’t do what I planned to do. So tomorrow we go again.
Today, I watched YouTube videos, three videos stood out. They were about the spirit of fantasy, maladaptive daydreaming. At first, I was like how does it apply and do I day dream but I have got to be honest when have I read books. I used to immerse myself in the story line, I didn’t want to be disturbed or distracted. Simply don’t call me or ask me to do anything. I would even say, I am in the bathroom where no one could disturb my reading. I would read a book for hours, into the early morning but that’s not how life works I realise. There was no balance, I was paying attention to a different world that was not reality for hours, it’s not healthy. Same thing with watching anime.
Focusing on the now is healthy and helpful for me. Learning how to put God first and put my trust in God is right for me. I am understanding a bit why God asked me to not read book, watch anime or listen to music this month. They are things I have used to distract myself excessively. I believe you can have balance, not with the spirit of fantasy oh or with maladaptive daydreaming. I would like to get to the point where I am watching an anime or reading a book for enjoyment not for escapism.
Videos I watched
https://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=shared&v=Y6wcha3dJIo
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Ma4VZ7rxGOw
18 January 2024
I want you to please watch this video – https://youtu.be/3Z-DUgJicYY?feature=shared
It can be found by typing- A pastor has a chilling encounter with Jesus himself, who delivers an urgent Message!
God knows each of our hearts and wants us to come back.
19 January 2024
Shopping, watching YouTube videos with the family.
I watched Taking control of our thoughts – Dr Charles Stanley – in touch ministries, I managed to watch to 19 minutes. I am starting to enjoy learning and taking the knowledge in.
Lastly, I watched spiritual warfare: how to put on the armour of God by impact video ministries https://youtu.be/e6X-c3QcSX4?feature=shared
I wanted to sleep without my thoughts running so I put on fall asleep in God’s word by abide https://youtu.be/XeJ2vOHaATg?feature=shared
20 January 2024
Today, I was blessed with some Money but instead of being grateful my mind went straight to it being the wrong amount. I was really bothered that, like why was my first thought not gratitude. I am not working, I haven’t for six months but yet I have been more than blessed in this time.
I have not found it easy adjusting to not knowing when money is going into my account, not being able to buy as I did before or send money to my sister etc. It has been a lesson, especially for learning to steward money and not overspend. Cause what I was doing before was not cute, even in the first few months of not working I was spending like I was expecting a pay check.
I went on a tangent, after not being happy with thoughts that didn’t go straight to gratitude. I went on the bible app from You version. I was planning to search the bible for gratitude, but I ended up on the guided prayer.
I was comforted and reminded to think of the good things God has done in my life, change the way I think, pray for boldness, peace and thank God.
It helped me reset my day.
21 January 2024
I slept a lot in preparation for the course my siblings booked for me.
22 January 2024
The home maintenance course day 1, was amazing.
After the course I picked up my too good to go order, I am so grateful my parents picked me up from the supermarket the bag was too heavy.
23 January 2024
The home maintenance course day 2 and the last day. Big shout out to my siblings for the Christmas present (the course). I really enjoyed myself and got to practically learn.
24 January 2024
https://youtu.be/EoJIejjBFEM?feature=shared and https://youtu.be/srZcwf7fCkg?feature=shared by just Faye and faith. She let everyone know her history, lowest point and how God brought her to where she is right now.
Then I went to a job fair, in the late morning, got back home in the early afternoon and chilled.
25 January 2024
Today I got up late, still I am happy I switched the tv off and eventually put down my phone.
I am off to another job fair.
Update – after the job fair I went to a bakery and went home to rest.
26 January 2024
This was a half day of shopping, I enjoyed myself with my parents, then I went to an appointment.
After the appointment I called a learning centre to start something new. I was happy, but i didn’t anticipate the time or place of the course.
27 January 2024
I woke up and finished the show, I was watching. I planned to go out with a friend before I knew the course was booked.
To cut a long story short, I spent time after the course was confirmed worrying about stupid things, one the funds to take transport during the weekdays, two leaving the house at 6:30 am every weekday, after spending weeks waking after 9 am.
I had a conversation with my sister, saying God has giving me these opportunities, (I was saying if, when there is no if I have received them) I should stop doubting that God has given me everything I need to accomplish them.
During the outing with my friend, I was paying too much attention to trying to not spend money, when I stopped being silly, I enjoyed myself. It didn’t mean that I went and spent a ridiculous amount. I still kept to my budget just about, after the talk with my sister I had more peace, clarity.
I really enjoyed my time with my dear friend. After I got home, I started watching a series with my mum and sister.
28 January 2024
I started watching an episode favourite series yesterday, so I watched a few episodes in the morning, which was bad cause I should have spent some time doing my hair.
I went to continue watch the series that I started with my mum and sister; we didn’t finish watching the second season till 8 pm🫣. I got my hair sorted out my lovely mum and sister. Then I prepared for the next day.
29 January 2024
Today I am grateful, I woke up nicely, God woke me up before my alarm. I am much more rested than I thought I would be. Right now, I am on my last train. God is good
After the course day, I got home late afternoon, eat, spoke with my sister, parents, watched my show. I didn’t sleep early.
30 January 2024
Today I am grateful my dad woke me up, you know when you have woken up before and you fall asleep again but you’re likely to sleep past your alarm.
I was rushing around, trying to not miss the bus, and my dad told me to enjoy the course, the experience but I was still rushing, I forgot to pray before leaving the house and when I left my dad asked me about a sandwich, I responded that I don’t have time (caution- you don’t get what you say, so I have time)
When I got on the bus, I realised, ah I hadn’t prayed in the rush.
To avoid the rush tomorrow I will sleep earlier and commit the next day into Gods hands.
This song came to mind today it’s all in your name lord by CeCe Winan’s
A verse came to mind in your patience possess ye your soul Luke 21 verse 19 (KJV), so I read verse 1 to 28. Truth fully it filled me with dread and hope, weird right having heard a bit of talk of war and reading the chapter describing turbulent times yet verse 13, 18 and 19 stand out, cause to me they show in everything, every situation God is with us.
The amplified version stated” By your [patient] endurance [empowered by the Holy Spirit] you will gain your souls. “
Luke 21:19 AMP
Later, I was blessed to be picked up by my siblings from the train station, I really enjoyed my day on the course. The one of the songs that my brother played in the car was Wookie lain – battle. The lyrics and song are top tier.
Wookie lain – battle
You just took in hiding from yourself, always slip-slidingEvery day, a mask your wearing, trying to show you’re survivingOn the run from soul to soul, but you can never find your goalYou lose the spirit at the cost and now your soul could be lost
You just took in hiding from yourself, always slip-slidingEvery day, a mask your wearing, trying to show you’re survivingOn the run from soul to soul, but you can never find your goalYou lose the spirit at the cost and now your soul could be lost
When you just had enough, and you see no way outIt’s alright, don’t panic, things can work for your crew
It’s okay, is what I say when I’m praying earlyThere’s a hand from on high, God is never failing
Every day is like a battle, but we’ll overcomeWhen we get back in the saddle, faith will bring us home
Every day is like a battle, but we’ll overcomeWhen we get back in the saddle, faith will bring us home
All the promises I have, hidden deep in my heartI recall after all of my worst existenceIt simply says that, when or less than feeling blessed in my lifeHe will send the word I need to restore contempt to me
I can always rely on my faith to get byWe all can if we try
Every day is like a battle, but we’ll overcomeWhen we get back in the saddle, faith will bring us home
Every day is like a battle, but we’ll overcomeWhen we get back in the saddle, faith will bring us home (home)
Every day is like a battle, but we’ll overcomeWhen we get back in the saddle, faith will bring us home (bring us home)
You just took in hiding from yourself, always slip-slidingEvery day, a mask your wearing, trying to show you’re survivingOn the run from soul to soul, but you can never find your goalYou lose the spirit at the cost and now your soul could be lost
Source: Musixmatch
31 January 2024
I was pondering a few things; one was I am about to release all the things that I have written over the years. The first thing I thought was REALLY, the next how is embarrassing 🙈, there are some things I wrote in pain, frustration, happiness, contemplation, all sort of feelings moods, attitudes and thought processes. Really, I could go on and on. I thought that it shows relationship with God and when I backslid and leaned on my own understanding, how I was, what I was thinking, how I have changed, my perspectives.
It’s also a release.
Enough about me, on to the verse of the day, which is
” Then he said, “Beware! Guard against every kind of greed. Life is not measured by how much you own.”
Luke 12:15 NLT
I thought “every kind of greed” they must be many types and I started thinking about my life, the types of greed I have held. The want for things, storing or hoarding, still wanting more, to read more books, to go more places. Even when you have, your still not satisfied.
It had me thinking that greed is not just about material things, it can be power, influence, jobs, time?
After reading the devotional of the day (the empty pursuit of wealth), it convicted me but my thoughts were shallow doesn’t God want us enjoy life, can we not have wealth. Update material things (update wealth and greed are two different things). Then, a verse came to mind” But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. “
Matthew 6:33 KJV
For context Matthew chapter 6 verse 24 says you cannot serve God and mammon (please do your own research on Mammon, ask God to help you understand or even interpretation, mammon has been described as a demon embodying greed or a term to describe according to britannica “the debasing influence of material wealthhttps://www.britannica.com/topic/mammon). Then Matthew chapter 6 verse 25 to 32 remind us that God has us. Sometimes truthfully, I struggle to believe that God will supply all my needs and that he wants me to have life and have it more abundantly.
I read the parable of the rich fool, which is Luke chapter 12 verse 13 to 21. Read it. Verse 21 makes it clear
” Yes, a person is a fool to store up earthly wealth but not have a rich relationship with God.”
Luke 12:21 NLT
So, I end this part with the prayer from you version
“Dear God, guard my heart against endless craving for more. Help me find contentment beyond possessions. Help me to redirect my focus to seek your Kingdom and righteousness above all else. May my lives reflect your purpose and fulfilment. Amen
Song in my head – I am blessed and highly favoured asking God to let me see another day – Highly favoured by Savannah re
Finished the day of the course and I had a conversation with my sister, one of the things I brought up was, that it is the last day of the months fast from watching anime, reading books, and listening to music of my own accord. She asked if I would continue and I said no, but I might do so. Yet, I can’t go back to what I saw doing in the past. Which was spending copious amounts of time watching anime and reading books. I said I would pray for balance. I still want to enjoy myself, rest, relax but not to overindulge.
See you in the next month’s reflection.